In my defense, I was in Auckland.
Poor excuse, but like I give a fuck.
Today, I'm ready to give up. To pack my things, load up the car, and go home.
I hate it here. I hate this broken city, I hate the lack of nice beaches and offshore Islands, I hate the lack of nice restaurants and decent sushi. I hate this house, how it's too small for 4 people and I never feel alone, I hate not having the food I like, I hate dinners of lamb with instant pasta and peas, I hate being scared of the scumbags who are stealing covers off horses, and cleaning out tackrooms and homes. I hate not having my wonderful friends, I hate not being able to do the things I enjoy.
I hate feeling like an extra in this game of happy families.
I hate feeling like when I'm here, I don't have a real relationship, that I'm dating a five year old.
I want to go home.
To my family.
To my friends.
To my house with a beatiful ocean view.
To nice, smooth roads.
To free grazing.
To a nice car.
To the boat.
To good food.
To Asahi, Iced Mangoes, and expensive dinners out.
To malls and buildings that don't have cracks up the walls.
To Woodhill Forest ad Muriwai beach.
To happyness.
I want my life back. And my boyfriend. The one I get when we leave here, the one I get in Auckland, Greymouth, Taupo, Wellington, Hanmer. The one I lose whenever we get back to this shithole.
Should never have left.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
Saturday 17th to Monday 19th
Ha, pathetic effort thus far.
Last time I blogged was Friday... eep.
Saturday was a fairly busy day... David and I realised we need some sort of storage for our room. Decided to get plastic cubes and set out to find them. However, I remember them being significantly bigger, so we went to 5ish different places looking for the 'real' cubes. Eventually I settled on the little ones, and a laundry hamper.
However once the cubes were in place, I realised they look bigger when they're not in the shop :D
Soo we cleaned everything up, and made heaps more room.
Watched a few movies that night, one being Kung Fu Panda 2, which have me the hugest craving for dumplings.
Sunday morning, of course, started with Dumplings at around lunch time. NOOOMMMMM
Then home to finish off movies and room.
And that was about it..
Monday. iSite. Fail of a morning - ran out of things to do by 10:30 so spent the next hour making bracelets out of paper clips and name labels on the label maker.
Left earlier than intended and went to ferrymead for the bank. Go the asb portacom!
After lunch I headed to South City feeling like a loser by myself for a few things.. first time driving on Colombo :O
rest of the day was nothing much... doing washing and tending to neighs.
Any real thoughts over the last 3 days? If there were, I can't remember them.
x
Last time I blogged was Friday... eep.
Saturday was a fairly busy day... David and I realised we need some sort of storage for our room. Decided to get plastic cubes and set out to find them. However, I remember them being significantly bigger, so we went to 5ish different places looking for the 'real' cubes. Eventually I settled on the little ones, and a laundry hamper.
However once the cubes were in place, I realised they look bigger when they're not in the shop :D
Soo we cleaned everything up, and made heaps more room.
Watched a few movies that night, one being Kung Fu Panda 2, which have me the hugest craving for dumplings.
Sunday morning, of course, started with Dumplings at around lunch time. NOOOMMMMM
Then home to finish off movies and room.
And that was about it..
Monday. iSite. Fail of a morning - ran out of things to do by 10:30 so spent the next hour making bracelets out of paper clips and name labels on the label maker.
Left earlier than intended and went to ferrymead for the bank. Go the asb portacom!
After lunch I headed to South City feeling like a loser by myself for a few things.. first time driving on Colombo :O
rest of the day was nothing much... doing washing and tending to neighs.
Any real thoughts over the last 3 days? If there were, I can't remember them.
x
Thursday, December 15, 2011
December 16th, 2011
Alrighty it is now the end of 2011 and I have decided to start blogging again.
This has been the craziest year - with uni falling through then CPIT business also falling through. Oh, and work!
Earthquakes have finally settled - I don't know what I would have done with David!
Had a go at automotive through a course at CPIT. Definately not where I want to take my life.
Today, I worked for Frank at iSite Media. It was alright, however my eyes were hurting by 1:30 and I got a $55 parking ticket - not ideal! Luckily I actually have the money atm to pay it! Eeeep!
David bought me beautiful flowers the other day - lots of purples and white all wrapped up in pretty purple paper... my fave colour! He's amazing, really truely wonderful.
So anyway, that's all for today, my first blog here in over a year!
Plans for the evening? Get dinner with David, and watch "Good Luck Charlie; Its Christmas"
Don't judge.
Outties.
x
This has been the craziest year - with uni falling through then CPIT business also falling through. Oh, and work!
Earthquakes have finally settled - I don't know what I would have done with David!
Had a go at automotive through a course at CPIT. Definately not where I want to take my life.
Today, I worked for Frank at iSite Media. It was alright, however my eyes were hurting by 1:30 and I got a $55 parking ticket - not ideal! Luckily I actually have the money atm to pay it! Eeeep!
David bought me beautiful flowers the other day - lots of purples and white all wrapped up in pretty purple paper... my fave colour! He's amazing, really truely wonderful.
So anyway, that's all for today, my first blog here in over a year!
Plans for the evening? Get dinner with David, and watch "Good Luck Charlie; Its Christmas"
Don't judge.
Outties.
x
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