Sunday 30th

Wow. Drained.

Lisa got to Mack before me yesterday morning, so I had to present to her a muddy, hairy, pathetic excuse of  horse. But, he is the coolest muddy hairy pathetic excuse for a horse around. And it became obvious that she could see that too.

They rode in the arena and did pretty dressage. Then she went, and i went home and got ready for Caitlins party.

The party was awesome. Caity has the coolest music ever, and everyone was really into it. the costumes were gorgeous and super creative! Had a great time being with everyone from school. =) I think I take them for granted sometimes. I see them everyday at school so forget to treasure them as much as i should. Its gonna be hard saying goodbye to everyone at the end of the year =(
Anyway, got home and spent a while talking on msn. Kinda broke down when i thought about Mack.

Lisa came back this morning. Rode in the paddock and down the road. Mack was a superstar. Even with Sparkie losing his head in the next paddock and a lady redoing her fencing next door. Almost cried while she was riding, knowing that him behaving means she will probably take him. But managed to blink the tears away.

Broke down when she left, as we had agreed that she would take him on trial on Saturday. Gonna miss him loads. ='(

Got home, fell asleep. Woke up and pretty much just talked on msn for the rest of the day.
Everything turned to shit about an hour ago, but its better now. =]

Such a rahh mood atm. So happy, but so crushed about Mack, and stressing that Im a week late. Im sure its nothing, its just concerning when it doesnt come! =/

And I've found a whole new love for cows. Theyr the most amazing animal ever. So big and strong, but gentle and peaceful. I love their quirky personalities, their cute faces, their noses, their long curly tongues. The way they build trust in people, the way they run and jump around when theyr excited. awwhh. I want one. But SOMEONE said no.

Seriously though, how cute is this

Very cute!

Makes me miss Mack tho.. thinking about big animals.

=(

Tears before bedtime.

Bye dolls.

xx

Saturday 29th

Like ohemgee irregular blog much.

Il catch you all up quickly..
Wednesday - didnt go to school. I woke up, it was raining, i was still tired and i had cramps so i went back to bed.

Thursday - School.. Went to staff room in the morning and ate the teachers cereal. was so good! haha.

Friday.. Yesterday.. Teachers only day. Went to Newmarket with Fabienne and Jacqui, and found Jo and Raiden while we were there. Was super fun, went to so many different shops and tried heaps of dresses. Lots and lots of walking, and lots and lots of money. I got new lipgloss xD Venom, managed to find it within the first like ten minutes of being there. I guess that kinda set the day, $98 spent at the first shop ;) hahaha.
We found a toy shop and played with the toys, and managed to squeeze three of us into this tiny little playhouse! haha was epic. So much happened that I can hardly remember atm. But we got our dresses!!!! =D So pleased, such a relief to have it. If i can take a good photo of it il put it up.

Its now 8:45.. Lisa is coming to look at Mack at 9:30 so I should probably start getting ready to head up there. So excited and nervous! I really hope she likes him.
And Jed left today. Gone to the South Island for three weeks. =( Which is really quite gay coz i havnt seen him in like 2 or 3 weeks so another three weeks is ages. =(
caitlins party is tonight. Much excite. =D

ahhh so nervous about Lisa coming. Gonna go get him clean and ready.
Toodles
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Tuesday 25th?

Okay, so my internet is finaslly back up and running. I feel really bad for not blogging since last Monday. Feels like so much has happened since then.

All in all the whole of last week was pretty cruisey. didnt spend much time doing social studies, rest of the classes were pretty laxxed.

Friday night was awesome. I love spending time outside of school with my girlies from school. I dont see them enuff outside of school hours so its really cool when we do have a good night out. Jacqui, Tash and I got gumboots for winter coz we're awesome, then after fucking around with lots of random shite went to the movies. when we got there we realised we didnt want to go to the movies so went back to orewa. Eventually we found sundanay and went thru the tunnels to Puhoi and ended up in town. =) All in all was a good night, and jacqui and tash stayed at mine.

Next morning we went into orewa for breakfast, got flowers and went home. Mummy took me shopping for a ball dress but i didnt see any i liked that were a nice fit but ended up getting a really pretty bracelet, a new top/dress, and a scarf =D I love scarves. xD Obsession. <3


saturday night was supposed to be epic buut i was exhausted and fell asleep. had planned on going party hopping, but found myself drifting off early and waking up to sunday morning.

Sunday was gay. Had to do my socials assignment for monday. Pretty sure I failed! haha.
But il add in here that i got excellence for my English report xD

Yesterday was one of the cruisiest days ever! didnt have to pick up a pen once.
p1 was study where i sat and tawked to siobhan, lotta and catherine
p2 was english, where i tawked to tash and nicole and went thru nicoles photos
p3 was business where i went to the socials staff room and tawked with hannah, jacqui and tash. we watched rachel ray and made ball arrangements
p4 we had an attitude lecture
then i went home early thanks to study last.

Today wasnt much harder, just tiring. Bio was boring, Jarryd was away in physics (thankgod, but so not fair since jaclyn lost!), english extension was lame, english extension Nicole, jacqui and i snuck back to our staff room, made milos and listened to music. booked my hair for the ball. ate Mr Dunnings crackers. emailed blucher. had a rofl with Miss James.
Business was gay. Coz it just is.
Then went over to the shore with lubii and chilled for a bit before coming home, tawking to someone really awesomely special on msn and writing my blog.

Oh and I got an email tonight about Mack. Someone wants to buy him! she sounds lovely, and shes coming to see him at 9:30am on saturday! So nervous and excited. lots of tears if he leaves.

Thats it for now.. I'll try and regulate my blogs again. haha sounds like im tawking about periods. regular and irregular flows =P
Nyt darlings.
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Monday 7teenth.

Happy Birthday Caitlin!!!!!
=)

Last nyt was pretty coolies. went to Jeds then cruised around.. went to the playground and cudnt get the buckle done up on the swing =/ Eventually got it up so algudz.

Dunno what tym we got home.. but i was tired.

This morning realised we had our business presentations p1 && 2.
got to school, handed in english report (thankgoddd) and memorised lines for presentation. did presentation. Was awesome.

the rest of the day unfolded smoothly. Physics was super boring but Raiden and I spent a considerable amoiunt of time throwing a piece of cardboard at each other =D he made it bounce off my head. =D

thennn finded Lubii and looked at a car and went home and started writing a blog.

Grease dress up day tomorrow = wearing mums old dress. haha shud be interesting. =P

going to look at car again laterz. like when lubii finishes work. fingers x'd it works out.

i has nothing else to say. lame, i know. but yoo all love it

byeee
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Sunday 16th. in my defense, i havnt had internet!!!

Alrighty.. since i hav been unable to blog due to internet problems, i shall start from thursday.

Thursday.. as far as i remember was a pretty average day at school. Went to Takanini with lubii at like 10pm to see a car and mu went off her nut. but whatevs.

Friday was another average day at school, but Jacqui came over in the afternoon.We went to japanese after school and ate waayy too much, went home, went out to get food (Snakky junky shit), went home, went down to orewa. in orewa we walked to orewa north and had a look at what had changed and what was the same. epic memory sesh. played on all the playgrounds, including the new one, poledanced on their pole. was really cool, and pitch black.
then went into orewa orewa and as we were walking past the japanese restaurant we saw sundanay!!! she was working. then a drunk/high/mental cunt came up to us and was verbally abusing us and trying to start fights etc so we went inside and called the police. They eventually came and the guy from the japanese restaurant gave us a ride home. We went outside and calmed down with some teebeeceeohh.
A bit later we told Campbell he shud take us cruising so he did. haha. we went to the school thing i hate the most due to badd memories and just kinda sat around. was algudz tho. on the way home it was humiliating that we cudnt keep up with the other cars racing. haha. But Campbell won anyway, by default if nothing else.
Parents were alseep when we got home so we had to be quiet and eventually fell asleep.

Saturday we woke up and went to Mack. He choked on some hay, got a blood nose, cut his leg and there was a thunder storm. typical. so we left him in the stable, tucked up with his covers and hay, and went home.
Im getting bored so il just skim over the rest.
We then went and got lunch, watched the top gear challenges and then Jacqui went home. I cudnt go out and fell asleep sometime between 10 and 10:30 pm. nana! lol.

this morning i did a final edit of my stupid english research and went to take macks cover off. Mum helped me suss some outfits for the next few dress up events. its now 1:30pm. Lubii finishes work at 3:30. Then shes coming here and we're gonna go to Jeds.

Soooo i should be going to get ready.
much love
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Wednesday 12th

okay so i didnt blog tomorrow, buut in my defense, My wireless was broken.

So now im using internet thats running through a cable from the main computer to my laptop.

This means that my family can walk past whenever they please and read my msn convos. fuck that!!!

So tonights blog will just be quick.

yesterday was insane. Was so tired after being out late on monday, and had to finish English report when i got home. didnt even have study!!!! Business was funny. "He got rejected from MCDONALDS!!!" and "Its coz his gf doesnt satisfy him" roflrofl good shit. Then Corey seemed shocked when i helped Khail and was like "Georgia is smart." He sounded stunned. =P
So yeah got home, fell asleep whilst txting, then did english.

Handed it in today, to pick up tomorrow, to edit more then final hand in friday. rahh!!

This morning i woke up at 8:05, and had to leave at 8:20. was a slight panic but got their in the end. was a pretty cruisey day with study 2nd and last, so got to go home early.

study 2nd was epic. we hid from blucher so we didnt havta work, then made ourselves hot chocolate and she gave us chocolate blocks. om nom nom.
Then we proceeded to raid their fridge and cupboards and eat their crackers and pumpkin and something dip. was actually kinda nice.

this afternoon was pretty uneventful. went home. watched the hannah montana movie again.
"hottest styles every shoe every colouuur"
TBPH I kinda liked it xD more than kinda, i liked it. =D
face mask + hair mask was nice. laxxed.

so like yah.. thats all i can think about ay tee emm.

love yoo all muchlyy.
xxxxx

Monday 10th

Quick blog.. Coz Im going out shortly. Chilling with Lubii and Jed and whoever else on the shore
=)

Sooo today I handed in my socials (yusss!!), had a pretty cruisey day and got to finish early thanks to study last.
got home, did bio, finished bio, so is now ready for hand in tomorrow.
haha

Also went for a cruise with lubii coz i needed a break.

received some pretty horrid news, but we wont go into that.

I dont actually know what Im writing, kinda just came on here and hoped soething would come to me. so here I am, typing really just for the sake of it.
Relieved that socials is in and bio is over.. gives me a couple of days to think about english before i get the next part of socials to do, and english due on friday. rahh.

Buuut after that is Lottas party, which im super excited for =)
And caitlins is coming up! excited for that too.. still havnt opened my invite yet tho coz its way too cute!!!!

Since i have absoloutely nothing at all to say...
I'll go get ready for tonight. xD
Much love my darrlinngggss
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Sunday 9th

THANKKK FUCKINNGGGG GOD i have now finished part 2 of my social studies internal!!!!

Huge relief. Been working on it all weekend, as well as bio and English.

Yesterday was such a nothing day. Just did school work. I cant even really remember the day. Tidied and re-arranged my bedroom. haha.
I really want new furniture for my bedroom. I know exactly what I want, but of course nowhere makes it! =/
I want white. So sick of the wooden look. Rahh!!

Today was spent pretty much at my desk doing school work. Im finding the results of the surveys really interesting. Its funny seeing what some peoples opinions are. Like 62 year olds who say that young drivers are targetted because he often loses traction for fun and is never picked up for it. =P Love it.

Family came over for lunch. Was kinda nice. Apart from spending about 2 hours trying to choose an outfit =P Nothing looked right.

I dont really have anything of much interest to talk about tonight tbh. havnt done anything!!

haha actually, i have a small anecdote I can add. =P The song "bedrock" just came on and it reminded me of drinks at Jeds.
So we were down in Jeds room, and that song came on. I was sitting on his bed and he was suddenly like
"OMG! Get off! Quick I have to show you something"
I didnt get off. So he explained it.
"So what you do is, if your bed is in the corner, you pull the base out about 10cm, and push the mattress back against the wall. Then your sheets pull out a bit more the cover the edge of the base that sticks out. Then when you.. ya know.. it doesnt make as much noise banging against the wall coz the mattress is soft" *proud face*
It makes me laugh every time that song comes on. =P

hehe anywayyy.. Hope everyones had an awesome weekend. =)
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Friday 7th May

BIIARRCH YEEAAAHHH!!!




Fuck Im in the awesomeessssttt mood everrrrr!!!! ahahahahaha. omg. lol.



I dont know why. Just really Upppbeaaat. On cloud nine or some shit. haha.



Campbell keeps reminding me to write about families, and I'm giong to try to tonight, although i dont think Il be able to get to the depth id like to be able to. far too fizzzyyy.



So, Next week My english is due, my social studies is due and my biology is due.

i've hardly started any of them!!! =/



hence, I am currently at home being a wee hermit, trying not to txt, and get on with my work.

But hey, a little family time never hurt anyone. (well its possible, actually highly likely in abusive family relationships, but we wont go into that just yet).

So the other night I was thinking. about friends, family, future, etc etc.



and i started reminiscing. Particularly, back to the night my brother almost died. It was the day after his 2nd birthday. so he was 2, and I was 6. We had a shitload of people at our house for fireworks. Loads of friends and family and neighbours. all was going well until the show off little 2 year old climbed the railings on our deck, slipped, and fell.

It was a 6m (or so) drop, onto concrete.

I remember that night clearly, although bits are a bit fuzzy as I didnt understand what was happening at the time.

all the adults started scrambling around, crying and screaming and yelling directions to each other. Those who couldnt help went home.

I remember watching my mum on the phone to the ambulance, crying histerically.

he was my best friend at the time, and not knowing whether he would live or die was horrid. Only on the last few years has that blood stain worn off.

Anyway, I stayed at my nanas that night, as both my parents were in the ambulance.

Obv he survived. But was in hospital for a loong time. I used to go there afterschool and eat his food =D



It kinda made me realise how much you need to treasure family. Keep them close, and never miss a chance to tell them you love them. Coz anyday they could be snatched away from you, within seconds, and yool forever regret not being a tighter unit.



and my day? I was a bitch in business, did nothing in socials, filed confidential absence notes for Ms Murray, had coffee, got sidetracked several times in bio, pretty much fell asleep watching movies at lunch time, and checked the clock every 2 seconds in physics.

Jaclyn was away and raiden was at SADD so Jarryd sat next to me. =/ And for whatever reason he thought it would be funny to put his arm around me. It wasnt funny. i wanted to kill him. But i refrained.

ohh aaannnddd I spent the day feeling like a feather, really really light, like i was walking on clouds or would just float off at any time. =) Was epic.



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just quickly.. a wee giggle for Spakkii

Hey Ms Blucher!




We just thought to tell you that you're still logged on. We took the liberty, since, you know, we are practically your secretaries (your words, not ours), to check your email and to remind you that you are in debt.



You have new mail from the following recipients: Margaret Brown, Tracey O'Neill and Sue Harlock.



Don't leave them hangin Miss.



You are also in debt for $365.11. You don't want debt collectors on your ass, do you Miss?



We have also come to the conclusion that you obviously love us more than ********: hence we are sitting here drinking your hot chocolate and eating Mr Dunnings crackers.



Much love, (because you love us more than *********)



Jacqui the awesome from awesome town (Yes, awesome town is on my boat) and Georgia the innocent from gangster town aka South Auckland (even though she lives in Orewa, NORTH Auckland)



P.s. You're out of Milo and you need to do the washing up. We're not your wives! We are secretaries. Please send our pay to:



Social Studies Department Resource Room,

Orewa College,

Riverside Road,

Orewa



Since, you know, we practically live here...

Wednesday 5th

Laxxxed as day!!!
haha today I did fuck all. It was as follows..
p1 i had physics.. went to that class, did one problem and spent the rest of the lesson thinking about bentley and mercedes.


p2 had study.. went to that. did nothing.

p3 english.. went to the socials resource room with Jacqui. Tawked to Ms Blucher and sent her an email ;)

p4 had business.. went to the socials resource room again with Tash, hung with Jacqui and Hannah as they were there too.

p5 had socials.. went to the socials resource room again with Cat, Jacqui and Sundanay.
xD
 
So spent my day drinking their hot chocolate and coffee, eating Mr Dunnings crackers, and tawking. =D
 
I was going to tawk in this blog about family, and family relationships, but as I really do need to get on with my English report and social studies internal, I'm gonna havta cut this blog short and tawk about the subject tomorrow. Buut thankingyoomuchhllyyyy Campbell for reminding me =)
 
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Tuesday the 4th

 dearest blog

Today was an ave day. Cramps + Migraines killed it, but o well.

Buuuut awsyyy news!!! I dont havta sell my pony! =) and I can stay at the grazing im at now. yay!

hehe went to see him this afternoon.. after 4 weeks of not seeing him, i chuck a halter on him, and with no shoes and no helmet take him for a hoon up the hill. he was amazing. Threw his head around like a psychopath and definately had a lot of unspent energy, but stopped as soon as I gave the aids and didnt throw in anything silly. =) So happy!
Such an amazing feeling.. an animal that weighs somewhere around the 500kg mark looking after you like that.

He looks like a wild kaimanawa. his coat and mane and tail have all lightened up heaps so hes a really cool chocolate brown colour all over, and because he hasnt had a cover he had patches of dry mud everywhere and his coat is super thick and fuzzy! Hes so cute! Kinda reminds me of when broccoli had Tahi. =)

So anyway, after riding him up the hill, i rode back down and took him up the driveway to the stables. all my brushes were at home so I had to use my hairbrush which was in the car =P And we shared a lollipop. xD then I chucked my gawjus blue winter cover on him, which he looks STUNNING in, and mummy made his feed. It was huge, so I took it to his paddock. He got really confused and cudnt find the bucket so i had to hold it up and scream at him. When he clicked he went insane, and gallopped straight at me, chucking in a series of bucks and rears while he circled me to slow down. Was super cool.
then he proved his awesomeness even more when he wouldnt eat until Id stepped back from the bucket. I is the bosss xD

aww. I love my pony!!! haha. no longer for sale!!!! xD  Lease, maybe, to the right home, but I dont think i could ever sell MackkyMoo. Hes such a huge part of my life. Hes like another friend. The ones that listen to anything and everything and never judge, but always help. =)

awww

Love you dolls
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Monday the 3rd

I got my nails done last night =) Had such a laxxed day, after so much car show stress!
Got to sleep in, helped paint the house, then went and had my nails done with Lubii.
the nail place closes at 5, we got there at 4:45 and were both there until about 4:50. =P haha sorry little asians.

But Im totally in love with my acrylics. yay! =)

Today was kinda lame coz everyones out on geo trip, but somehow I survived without them.

Got my socials framework.. Ms Blucher sed its all fine apart from where I state that "old people should get over themselves" and "dickheads not taking it seriously". haha miight need to rewrite that. xD

Assembly was such a let down! Police pretty much just said that because we're 7teen we'll all crash and die. haha. cool. But no drug doggs =( Lame!

so pleased I dont have physics tomorrow. Jarryd is the definition of annoying!!! I swear we cant get through a single lesson without him hassling me about something! rah! Todays big thing was "lets see how clever georgia is.. heres a paper ashtray". Yeah i didnt get it. =/

What else? Aw yeah, probz not going to the ball, coz it clashes with Lubiis birthday. and I wouldnt miss that!!!!

This is a really shallow blog.

Omg
I totally went to the community constable with jacqui the other day and she said "boy racers" no longer exist. The term is now "illegal street racers." Why is this? Because apparently being called 'boy racers' makes them think theyr cool. and theyr not. So far everyone iv spoken to thinks 'illegal street racers' sounds so much cooler. Police fail. Also, JDay. WTF! I mean it sounds like fun and all, but i dont understand why its allowed. coz in order for the weed to be available to smoke legally on that day, people have to grow it illegally prior to Jday and sell it. They say its illegal, but allow it to be legal for one day? Its not like underage drinking where one day minors cud by alch. For the one legal day, there are many illegal days. It really just encourages people to break the law. so dumb. But whatevs.

outties.

Bye dollllllssss
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(like omg yoo get an o.. i nevah o!)

Summary of last week of April

So I totally didnt blog. haha oops.

Cant really remember the week..

But Thursday Lubii and I went car hunting, then ended up in town. Screamed at the hookers and people in their cars.
On the shore we saw a lancer, chased it, pulled up next to it at the lights and asked if they wanted to sell it. He was keen but it was auto. so no go.

Prostitutes are creepy. I swear theyr like.. my biggest fear. I always think theyl eat me or something. haha. When the reaally rank black one disappeared i completely frittered and made lubii put the windows up and lock my door. =P
They have like.. zero self respect. The one wearing red was failing at trying to look hot.
But in saying that, i kinda admire that they have the balls (in some cases literally) to do it. And they manage themselves etc. but o well.. theyr still scary =D

Then friday was RECLAIM THE CITY!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those cars are sex on wheels. Like.. a 17 year old boy going to showgirls is the same as me going to reclaim the city. jizzzzzzzzzzzzzfessssttttt!!!! om nom nom.
After fapping over all the cars there, and watching them all take off, we (Jed, Lubii and I) went cruising. Stayed in town for a bit. Saw the reclaim group cruising up and down queen street and the bang bus pulled over - GUTS! Jed was kinda crunk and at the time it was sorta annoying, but looking back on it, it was fucking hilarious!!!!!!! Kept leaping out of the car to play the stop go game at every set of lights.
*jumps out* -halfway around car- "fuck its greeen!!!"
 "We'll find a way out, one way or another" - when we were lost in road maze near K rd. Then when we were at mish bay he proceeded to have a full on convo with himself. I recorded it for rofls. =P
Eventuallllyyyyy we went home.

Love yoo dolllssss
xxxxxxx