so I was just told my dad has changed his mind and he doesnt want to buy target anymore.
the one thing that actually kept me from snapping this week was getting that pony. and now hes gone. Its like having a rug pulled out from underneath you. Or taking the apple from the bottom of the pile and everything else collapsing.
and tbh having the one thing i was looking forward to kinda just adds to my not caring attitude. I mean, i dont wanna sound like a pathetic brat child who needs to grow up and get on with it, but having my relationship with my family steadily going down the tubes, a semi decent dressage test attacked, and my pony taken (i know i didnt have him yet, but thats still what it feels like) is an epic downbuzz.
I dont wanna go to school, or see people, and try to be strong and happy when nothing seems to be working for me.
Plus i feel super bad for not wanting to see anyone. I la la la looooveee my friends so so much, and they mean the world to me, but in all honesty i just want to be alone. Its not that I want to mope around, I just dont wanna put on a brave face.
Although getting it out in a blog does help me think about the situation in other ways.
In hindsight, perhaps sitting on my deck in the rain wasnt the best thing to do.
ReplyDeletehaha love cheer up things happen cant change that but dnt not care if u dnt care for ur family atleast keep caring for urself!!!
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Well those that matter will get what u are going through, take that time to be alone if you need, we get that. It's not like we won't understand that sometimes all you need to is to think and get your head together. Don't try put on a front, have a damn good mope nd cry and scream. I'm sure I'd feel the same in that situation. Look after yourself no matter, and, if you need anyone, give me a call anytime. xxxx
ReplyDeleteaww just saw these comments. You guys are awesome =)
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