wednesday 22nd

Hello my darlings

Back to blogging. Sadly was unable to come on yesterday as phone line and internet  were both down. Had taken the day off school to send emails and make phone calls and neither works out. fan-fucking-tastic.

anyway, today was alright. Bit boring, but i wrote a 9 paragraph essay in English, which i actually kinda liked. I love how im tawking about english and throughout my blogs my spelling and grammar is shcoking. i do realise it, i just cbf rewriting things. yoo awl love it anyway =P

Afterschool i caught up with the Lubester and we cruised around for hours. we had the radio up super loud, singing along into a hairbrush and dancing around. We screamed at people in their cars, people walking, made bird noises, monley sounds, and barked at dogs. It was really fun, but eventually all my energy was gone and we sorta died.

epic downbuzz. started thinking. About friendships, relationships, and last year.
I wish some of last year had never happened. Cant help but wonder how things would be now. I mean, i know theres no point in moping but it would be interesting.
And how much should you let people crush you before you cut off contact? Im the sort of person who you only have one chance with. fuck that up and im gone forever. but some people seem to stay in my life, no matter how upset or angry they make me. i just cant let them go. they get chance after chance, yet people who are always there for me no matter what dont get the same opps? idk how that works, but in my mind.. well in my mind it really doesnt work, but for some reason i cant help it. idk. maybe some people are just supposed to be in your life, put there for a reason. even if that reason is just to challenge you.
and maybe some rules should never be broken. thinking back to all the shit from last year, there are definately boundaries i wish i had never crossed. but i did, and one would hope that its all in the past now. i hope. i wish. doesnt seem to be tho. seems to have crossed over to 2010 and stuck. a grudge. like a red wine stain on a white dress. Cheap, tasteless red wine to be more precise, coz he wasnt even worth it.
maybz a goss sesh is in place. a true heart to heart with nothing left unsaid. so everythings out in teh open and everyone knows where they stand. no more pussying around and getting upset over the same stupid little things. time to grow up and move on? i thinkk soooo.

anyway, time to finish social studies for tomorrow. =/

Bloggers, I love you all.
and always remember the Golden Rule of Friendship:
never date a friends ex.

Dont break that one.

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