Wednesday 18th

Today was a very intense and emotional day.

Started off pretty normal, went to school.

Had physics first which I actually enjoyed, the little work focus groups are really good.

Then study, which i skillfully ditched early to go into Orewa with Jacqui. Went to the post office then got sushi for morning tea. Was definately a good morning, got hailed on as soon as we left school! haha. Had a few good laughs about a sparrow and my reasoning for not being at school. It came down to having to tell the truth... Jacqui and I have super powers which allow us to go wherever we think about in just one blink. :P If only that were true.. would so be south right now.

English was good, was really into my essay, like actuals. Not even being sarcastic. Got some good note writing done with Nicole :P I love her. Haha. And our little talks. ;)

After English I went and got changed and we started getting ready for SADD.
We had a mock car crash, to show the effects of driving drunk. I was the driver, with Daeun in the front seat and Sundanay in the back. The other car was driven by Raiden, with Jacqui in the front and Sophia in the back.
At first it was a lot of fun, the cars were set up to look like a head on collision, lots of broken glass everywhere. Getting the blood put on was really cool, felt really wierd.
Then it was time to start, and the emergency services started arriving and people started coming out of class to look. I was dead, so could only hear what was going on. It was quite exciting at first, but once they really got into it it was quite a freaky experience.
They treated it like a real crash, cutting doors off, smashing windows, and peeling off the roof. We were there for the hour, and in that tine I had to be lifeless. I almost flopped put of the car at one stage as I had been leaning against the door and they chopped it off. Gained a few cuts, scrapes and scratches from being showered with glass. At the end I got a blanket over me, and by this stage had managed to work myself up quite a bit.

While I was dead I thought really in depth about everything. About the stupid shit I've done that could've put me in the same position for real. About family, friends, David. About how they would feel if I had really died, if it wasnt just an act. How my relationships with them would've ended, on a good note, bad note.
How many lives would have been destroyed if that was a real situation.
Feeling kinda strange about the whole thing now, definately hit hard. Something I would never want anyone else to experience.

Also not a good time at the moment in terms of my relationship with David..
Its so hard being so far away from someone you care about so much knowing they need you there more than ever. Having to wait three weeks is torture, I just want to be with him, to help him. Now. Three weeks is definately not long if everything else in life is working out, but when its not, three weeks seems like forever.
But I know it will be worth the wait, and I hope he sees that too. Then I'll be back down 2 weeks later, and again sometime soon after that.

Looked at uni stuff last night. Im pretty much keen as a bean for UC. Just a few things to sort out, which I'll do when I go down. Much excite =]

Pretty drained now. Eventful day.
Final thoughts? ALWAYS make sure people know how much you love them, care about them, adore them. Because even if you're not the drunk driver, the person coming towards you from the other direction sure could be. Life is unpredictable. Never regret anything that ever made you happy, dont sweat the small stuff, and never let opportunities pass you by.